It's been a while. While I don't like to disclose much of my private life I believe I do owe you an explanation on why I'm gone lately. Well, multiple reasons, actually let's start from the top:
Obviously, I'm busy with my part time job, and when I'm not doing it, I'm playing games to release some stress (Nier Automata, Persona 5, etc.), I've said in this in the past, but this is bottom priority for me. This is merely a hobby to satisfy mine, and probably your fetish, which even though I'm disgusted of myself for doing so, I don't hate it nor doing it, nor being a part of this community, it is enjoyable for me. The main reason I don't disclose anything about me is because I have a reputation outside here. This is merely a double life I manage to satisfy my desires, and obviously, some days I would be ashamed of it and would want to burn it to the ground, not touch it ever again, and some days I'd want to commit my life to it. That's how it is.
(Disclaimer: No ill will to any transgender people, or anyone that commits their lives to this. More power to them. I'm just a random anxious person on the internet that holds themselves on such high standards so everything seems like something wrong to them)
The second reason is that, honestly, I'm becoming disgusted in the community. I've expressed in the past my disgust silently to any underage TG, but this is honestly getting ridiculous. I see captions of babies and little children being TG'd into. What in the actual fuck? Not only is it pedophilia (It is. Don't try to deny it. You're essentially masturbating to little kids) but also wrong on many other levels. That kid didn't choose for you to TG into him/her, what if they found out? How would you feel then? I've had once a person who tried to convince me to do an AR to a little baby that's probably around 3 years old. I politely told them I'm not okay with TGing into underage individuals, but they just kept on insisting and tried to find workarounds, I ended up blocking them. I've been getting many weird fetish requests lately as well, which btw, don't. Please.
I'm sure some will point to how my FAQ (Which btw, you should read. So many people aren't even aware it exists) about how I'm flexible on under 18 years old depending on the character, but even then, it's usually a character around 16 years old (Like say, something from the Persona games). You won't see a Pearl Fey TG around here.
Last, I'm just not getting the same "kick" as I had when I started. I want to make more caps like the Mikan, Junko, Litchi, Elphelt, etc. But it's hard to write good and unique ideas when you're so down on the whole ordeal. Maybe if more fun requests came in rather than "TG into my fursona" and such I might have more of a reason to keep going, but that doesn't seem to be the case, and that's unfortunate.
So, am I quitting? No. I am taking an official break though, soon. For now, I'll be finishing up requests I've been delaying and finish some ideas I had in my head hopefully by the end of the month. After that, I'll be gone for a little while. I'll provide you all with another big status update around May. Hopefully.
Thanks for reading this. As a "reward" I think you deserve to know a lil bit about me. I'm 17 years old, I live in the UK, my name is Jasmine, I'm a bisexual cis female. Feel free to ask me anything below as long as it's not too private. Whether it be clarification or just a casual question.